life is fragile…

as per subject… Life is so vunerable that no one can expect the unexpected.. we may just lose our friends/relatives/loved ones to fate.

Received a call from my mum last evening (Initially I tot she want want to tell me that we have strike 4D), but no. It was a sad news. ~ that my cousin passed away suddenly. My mum do not have the details on how and why he died… given my mum’s character, I know she will cry buckets if someone we know quite well passed away… morever is her nephew… Mum only briefly told me that my cousin was actually hospitalised for 2 weeks already and yet my auntie, as usual, didnt inform anyone except her family. She tot my cousin is ok and will be discharged soon… who knows… he never made it home….

this is the 2nd time my auntie did not inform anyone about what happen to her family… 1st time, was my uncle.. hospitalised for 2 mths and yet none of us know.. lucky we still managed to find out which hospital he was in.. and glad that he is still alive now though he has stroke… my uncle broke down in tears when he saw us for the 1st time after 2 months in hospital…

now, it happened again, and auntie dun wan to inform.. until her son passed away…. seriously, I dunno what is going thru her mind… she may not want to trouble us, but come on.. we all care for each other too… no matter how busy we are, I believe some of us will try to visit at least once…. now, isnt it too late to visit? haiz…

hope my cousin will rest in peace..

 

4th quarter

wow… 4th quarter of the year already.. and my last post is like 1 month back!

time flies.. especially when you have a kid, time flies even faster…  I realized my body is getting weaker after birth… I dun really have the energy to do anything at all. I feel tired 24/7. I find myself getting lazier as well. I have always somethings occupied in my mind and I cant seems to focus. hmmmm

Aerith walked a few steps on her own on 05 Oct (Children’s Day), just before we went for our Taiwan trip as a family (only 3 of us). Nowadays, she will stand on her own and walk small steps from one side to another side… cant help feeling that my darling is growing fast.. (not really that fast if compared to her peers :P). every kid is different and they learn to flip, crawl, walk, talk at different speed. My mum always say, when it’s time, they will do it. =)

Aerith is getting naughtier each day. She truly has the same character as her mum = stubborn  :P.  She can be a headache at times, and at the some times,she’s such a sweet angel.  Sometimes I wonder, what would my life be, if I choose to abort her in the first place. Would I be happier? Would I be more carefree? I’m glad the little hearbeat I saw during the ultrascan, reminded me that she deserve a chance to live.

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J got married yesterday. Feel happy for him as he married the gal of his dreams (I  think).  Looking at his photos, brought back alot of memories. Sweet-bitter memories I would say. He was afterall, my 1st love. In the past, I always tot we will be married to each other and lead a happy life together.  Well, we are not fated to be.  After breakup, I tot we can be frens, but reality is hard. I guess he probably feel awkward being frens with me.

The power of social network, we “met” again online in FB, but merely just another  “friend” we added in FB. Quite sad that we cant catch up like what friends do. Well, both of us have our own life to lead too… He, leading a new life with his wife, while me continue mine with bear and Aerith… The little wishful thinking of mine, still hope that we can hang out once a while like friends do. =)

Wish him all the best in his newly married life and hopefully we can meet again =)