being pregnant is really tough.. alot of sacrificies… cant even attend ming’s hens night yesterday.. though i dun like those clubbing places, but its allies hens night afterall.. haiz… I wish I can enjoy with them.. I wish I can share the fun as well..
being a mother is definitely not easy…has to give up many things becos of baby.. has to avoid certain food/drinks becos of baby as well… seems that our life just evolve around the baby… no more personal time for couplehood and no more “me” time….
if I can choose, I rather have all the sacrifices at a later stage… at least we can still enjoy for a while…
rantings are rantings… becos I feel so terrible physically and emotional… rantings are just my way of “destress”…. a fren told me that a mother always worry for every little things… if not, that person not suitable to be a mother at all… yes.. I worry damn lots…. I worry abt the financial status of us… I worry inflation always going on.. I worry that I cannot be a gd mum to my bb… I worry that I dunnno how to teach my bb… I worry abt going overseas to enjoy myself temporary and yet leaving bb with parents… I worry that my bb will pick up the wrong accent from my MIL, I dun wan my bb to grow up having Msian accent just like bear…
I worry alot… and maybe thats y I cant really enjoy the pregnancy at all… I am trying very very hard to be happy… I think my bb knows my exact feeling… pple told me things will get better when it comes… but who knows abt the future? cant it get worse?
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