frustrated

why the same things happen again and again..  why other can have happy and selfless family… why mine is like that.. why others can talk things out peacefully… why mine is full of naggings and complaints!!!

I tot family are supposed to support and encourage each other.. but why is mine always back-stabbing each other instead… why do they always take me for granted.. I always help whateva  and whenever I can… but when I need help… who help me? when I am vexed from the wedding preparations, who encourage me?  when I need a little financial support, who offer? no one in my family…

sometimes I wonder why I am born in such family… why my parents are not rich.. if they are, at least they can help me financially on my wedding… why my family are not my frens… if they are, at least they can comfort me when I am crying in my bed…

sometimes, people ask me why I want to get married… one of my reasons to get married is becos I wanna get out of this family… I wanted to form another family of my own and want to have the life I always wanted… that is also why, I dun like the idea of living with in-laws..  the same problem will still exist… becos afterall, I am just an outsider living with them… I wanted to have my own home.. but stupid hdb rather focus on other projects near to mrt than to expedite our Breeze… and that means I have to suffer another 2 years or so before my dream life is here… 50% of the selfish me is so afraid that if SIL get married suddenly before our home is here, means than my dream life is gone..

how I wish I can choose my own family like how I choose my husband and frens… I only wish for a happy family… is it too much?!?!?!

gown selection

25 February 2010, Thursday

went to select my gowns for actual day and for photoshoot… took 2.5hrs to select… quite fast eh.. haha.. bear’s even faster.. he just took 30min to select his 4 suits… lol…

I wanted to challenge myself, to break out of the norm… so I told Helen that I wan special gowns that look grand and yet cute but sexy.. haha… I think I really give her a hard time…

changing in and out of many gowns until I am tired…. initially, I still worried that I cannot find anything that I like… since I’ve tried the gowns in NY Vogue, my heart already with Taiwan gowns..  and when I went for my ROM dress selection, I was actually quite disappointed that I can’t find anything that I really like.. so this time, during the gowns selection, I dun really pin alot of hopes =X

I have to admit that Helen is great.. she know what is suitable for me and what I will like.. and she seems to know how to read my body language after being in the gowns.. at times, she just know that I dun like that particular gown.. lol..

gowns after gowns.. I started to feel at ease… most of the gowns that Helen choose, are pretty… and I end up trying more.. haha…

indeed.. more wedding gowns then evening gowns… I had a hard time deciding on the wedding gowns… bear din help much also.. whenever I am stuck on which to choose.. he just say ” see which one you like better.. up to u.. cos u are the one wearing…” =.= if I can decide.. I wont ask him liao lor…

although chosen all my gowns… but greedy me still hope there will be new stocks coming in when dates are nearer, so that I can choose my gowns again.. if I remember correctly, I only chose 1 new gown for photoshoot nia… my wedding gown, evening gowns and teadress are old stock leh.. so, can I choose new gowns again? haha…

true legend

21 February 2010, Sunday

True Legend is the extraordinary journey of a man – a martial arts hero – whose greatest dream is to create a unique school of martial arts for the world to follow.

All his life, Su Can has been pursuing the summit in martial arts. There are two things he holds dearest to his heart – the dream of creating a unique kind of martial arts that will pass on to generations; and his beloved wife. Su has a happy family and his wife is the joy of his life. But owing to a turn of fate and Su’s own stubbornness, he loses his wife and his family is destroyed.

After losing his wife, Su cannot live with himself and collapses totally. He is drunk all the time and becomes a crazy beggar in everyone’s eyes. Everyday, his young son ties him with a piece of rope and leads him through the streets, greeted by people’s curious and disdainful gazes.

But all this time during his spiritual exile, his dream for the highest peak in martial arts is still alive. In his madness, Su continues his practice, to perfect his skills and fists.

5 nachos.. I am not into fighting movies.. but this is really good… great kung fu scenes with some emotional tears… well.. maybe I am always an emo creature… that explains why… one thing I dun like is the fast-forwarding of the movie and the “special appearance” by Jay Chou… just my feeling.. I dun think Jay is suitable for such movies.. its so weird seeing him fighting… the feeling’s just not right.. other than that.. nth much to complain… and also, we now know how break-dance come about.. lol

percy jackson and the lightning thief

15 February 2010, Monday

It’s the 21st century, but the gods of Mount Olympus and assorted monsters have walked out of the pages of high school student Percy Jackson’s Greek mythology texts and into his life. And they’re not happy: Zeus’ lightning bolt has been stolen, and Percy is the prime suspect. Even more troubling is the sudden disappearance of Percy’s mother. As Percy finds himself caught between angry and battling gods, he and his friends embark on a cross-country adventure to catch the true lightning thief, save Percy’s mom, and unravel a mystery more powerful than the gods themselves.

5 nachos and thumbs up for percy jackson… I would say its a comedy-rpg movie..  some elements are quite similar to that of Harry Potter… some pple may think that percy jackson is a boring thing… personally, I like it alot… I believe kids will find it enjoyable.. in fact, I enjoy watching too =)… the special effects are quite cool… its actually good to imagine ourselves in a magical and fictional world..

cny 2010 on v-day

14 February 2010, Sunday

I quite like this year cny… bear came to my hse and had reunion dinner with my family on cny eve… this is truly a family reunion dinner… bear helped mama to put on those cny decos as well…

on 1st day of cny, bear came early to my hse to wish my parents a good year and together we went ah ma hse… I really like that feeling….

of cos we took a few pics as usual… this yr cny we took much lesser pics though….

at granny’s hse void deck… with bear, my sis and mcp..

youngest cousin of father’s side, huiyun..

my not-so-nice family portrait…

with cousins at lin’s hse..

and us again ;P

this yr, valentine’s day falls on 1st day of cny as well… after visiting relatives, we went out “celebrate”… due to budget, we din exchange v-day gifts.. no romantic candle-light dinner, no lavish flowers… just the 2 of us, having jap food… and bear bought me a bouquet from comics connection… well.. I chose the bouquet myself.. its only $19.90… cheap… but its very nice…

taken at bear’s hse…

watched Valentine’s Day on valentine’s day….

“Valentine’s Day” follows the intertwining storylines of a group of Los Angelinos as they find their way through romance over the course of one Valentine’s Day.

2/5 nachos for this movie… I dun recommend watching this in theatre… no storyline at all… simply different views of valentine’s day and different perspective of love from each individual… this reminds of me another movie “Feast of Love”.. the better thing abt Valentine’s Day is that there are at least some humor in it… well.. I still dun enjoy this movie.. to be fair, its heartwarming to catch this movie on valentine’s day itself..