14 August 2011, Sunday
Dr Chen asked me to admit to Mt Alvernia at 11.30pm.. You know, the feeling of being induced was scary… I couldnt slp the night before and I was so emo and cranky on this day.. my emotions got worst at night when SIL text me to be brave and jia you… I cried even more when MIL wan to talk to me on the phone.. but I refused… to stop myself from thinking too much, I told bear that I wanted a movie marathon.. otherwise, I will have to be imprisoned for 1mth…
watched Cowboys & Aliens followed by Rise of the Apes.. and we went to Macdonalds to kill time… gosh.. the feeling is terrible lor… how I wish my labour can come naturally… like my waterbag burst while on the way shopping or having this bloody “show” or contractions at regular interval… haiz… hate this feeling… and it doesnt help at all when both mothers are anxious as well…
anyway, upon admitted to MAH, the nurse asked me to change into the delivery gown, test my urine etc… we were asked to wait in the 1st stage ward as delivery wards were full at that moment… the nurse told bear to only register at the counter after 12mn, while I lie on the bed to slp =.=
15 August 2011, Monday
on 1219am, the medicine for passing out stool was inserted in my ass… damn it.. feel so gross.. I was told to hold for as long as I can before passing out all… I think the medicine too strong for me… within 10min, I went to the toilet and clear out… I tot everything was out… but I was wrong lor… I basically visit the toilet like every 30min…
1249am: the induction tablet was inserted into my “gf”… again, the nurse told me, for some pple, it takes mins to take effect, while for some, it take hrs… so for me, nth happen.. and I was asked to slp… bear joined me after his registration…
I din really slp at all.. how to slp in this condition, where I need to visit the toilet every 30min to clear my bowels… and the induction tablet makes me feel so cramp…
6am: we were asked to change to delivery ward… and wait again! by then, I was feeling a quite uncomfortable as the cramps get more and more intense… I finally know the feeling of menses cramp…
6.25am: I visited the toilet again and this time, it was “show” time… I asked bear to inform the nurse abt my bloody discharge.. and I can hear the nurses start to prepare themselves…
7am: cramps becomes more intense and I finally experience contractions.. damn it… nvr know its so unbearable… I also understand that y pple say contractions are like 1000x of cramps… I requested for laughing gas… well.. this ain’t any gas that can make me laugh… its er xin lor… it made me feel like puking instead… but the feeling was so terrible that my whole body was weak… already on half dazed mode.. I totally have no strength… bear seeing me in such agony, asked me to take epidural… but I refused… stubborn me want to stick to my birth plan of not using any epidural… nurses at MAH also encourage me to take epidural.. and I once again rejected… one of the nurses suggested me to take a painkiller jab on my thigh and I agreed and somehow, I went back to slp again…
7.40am: 3-4cm dilated.. still in half daze mode.. had some vague memories of bear talking to me.. but I forgot the contents.. I only remembered I keep asking bear why Dr Chen is not here…
9.30am: dilated 8cm… Dr Chen estimated half an hour more for me to be fully dilated… but somehow… the contractions are too much for me to take it… I remembered Dr Chen and nurses keep asking me to push but dun scream.. how the hell not to scream when the feeling was so intense!!! whenever I have “shitting feeling”, I push… and I heard voices that I am doing good and continue the same way….
9.54am: my last push and I saw Aerith’s head out… Dr Chen simply pull out the rest of Aerith’s body… she was taken away for cleaning… and I heard her small cries shortly…my whole body was so relax that I simply lie down… seeing her little face from far… I cant believe that I gave birth naturally without the use of epidural and I cant believe that I am a mummy now… its all like a dream man…
Aerith’s 1st cry…
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