another outdated post… many changes ard me… emotionally and physically… nvr say too early that getting pregnant is not in the game yet… well.. accidents do happen… just it happened to both of us…
fortunately, or shld I say unfortunately, yes.. I am pregnant… as of today, I am 12weeks and 4days pregnant…
this is totally unplanned and we definitely wont want this bb to come so fast… when I knew I am pregnant… my 1st intention is go for abortion… bear was as lost as me… we have our own plans, but with this bb, everything will be hindered…
yes we are selfish parents I admit… we are just not prepared to be one… we are newly married for 3mths only… our flat is not here yet.. we haven enjoyed our 二人世界 time enough.. we wanted to travel overseas and so many things undone… with this bb, everything will be stopped… even postfone to other dates, the feeling is just different…
we really had mixed emotions… to keep or not to keep…. seeing frens/relatives trying hard to conceive, even conceive, also miscarriage… pple try all means and spent lots just to have bb.. and yet we I am thinking of how to get rid…
if we keep, how I can do confinement in such a small room in amk, and together with MIL, SIL plus 3 tenants… where can the confinement lady slp? I dun wan MIL to do confinement for me… cos she is not gd health.. if she falls sick during my confinement period, am I to be blamed?
where can we put the baby cot? what happens after my maternity leave? same thing.. I dun wan my MIL to take care of my kid… my mum need to work and my dad is not in gd health as well… infant care can really do a gd job? even send to a nanny also cannot guarantee gd service… taking care myself… then, it will be very taxing on bear… all expenses will go up… plus, his sales job is not stable… how?
all sorts of qns coming in and I finally break down… its so stressful now… gynae advised us to keep of cos (I was abt 5wks pregnant then)… I am thinking that besides to moral values, she also wan to make money… abortion feels at most goes up to $1k? but the charges for delivery is definitely more than $2k not including the hosiptal charges…
ok I am thinking too much.. but I have to factor out the scenarios… I have to make plans for this unexpected gift… by the next appt with gynae 3 weeks later, bb was actually 9 weeks according to the size.. and we saw the hearts blinking on the screen…
“omg, I really have a life in me…” thats my 1st reaction… and yup…we decided to keep… successfully passed my 1st trimester although my morning sickness doesnt get anywhere… I believe my colleagues have been speculating ard when I wore flats and stop drinking my fav green tea… I still manage to keep mum abt it until I know I pass the safety mark…
I hope my morning sickness can subside and I can recover my appetite… I lost 3kg in 1st trimester.. and my appetite is smaller than before… as what ming says… just another 6mths and I can see my joy.. well.. I hope I will be happy too…
oh ya.. Happy Valentine’s Day to everyone! Wishing all happiness and love is all around =)
Filed under: baby of love, eeyoreistic
congrats!
i’m sure you will be looking forward to the delivery when the date gets nearer!
u shot gun lo?
nope.. I only got pregnant after I married.. its unplanned though.. but not considered shotgun =)