10.10

happy birthday to my cousin, jianyuan… may he excel in his studies as a full-time degree student….

happy birthday to colleague from another dept, yuin siang.. though not very close.. still birthday wish from me is needed…

happy birthday to my future Breeze neighbour, irene… stay a pretty mum always…

and happy birthday to others whose birthday is today as well…

good luck to J for his proposal plan tmr…  with 99 roses and a bling bling… every gal will definitely melt especially its from someone we love..

pls pardon my rantings again… I dunno what the heck I am emo abt again.. everything just dun seems to run smoothly for me today.. and every word from my family is definitely not pleasing at all… I start to hate my family… I hate myself for being in such a terrible plus horrible family… a lonely weekend definitely wont help much as well… everything is so frustrating and  f*ck up…

tried to read books and magazines, surf fb and net… but everything is so f*cking irritating… tried to slp and yet keep tossing around… tried to search my phonebook to see who I can call… but seems that I dun have a very very gd fren that I can really ask to accompany me…  end up crying for past 7 hrs in my bed… my eyes are swollen from all the crying… managed to slp awhile after all the crying.. when I woke up, I still feel frustrated… arrrgghhhh..

I’m gonna explode… and that bloody tear ducts seems to be malfunctioned again… damn it.. this is really shit…