poverty

I am haunted by poverty again.. shit… so poor that I have to touch my 私房錢… shitz man… but who can I blame.. none but myself… just becos I cant resist the temptation.. and end up having to pay lots of cc bills…  so poor that I head straight home after lesson today.. I am so damn afraid to go else where and start buying things… I hate this feeling… so helpless… and constantly worrying abt my insurance that will be deducted on 15th of every month… and also have to worry about the financial prob at home…

how I wish life can be like sorority life in fb… paycheck in every 30 mins… and all we do is to fight and get more members, to earn money… haiz…

I think I am depressed again…keep having headaches… I dunno what I am thinking… the headache just come as and when it like… and I cried suddenly in my bedroom… I feel so helpless… everything needs money… facials, nails, waxing, hair, food, transport, accessories etc… even engaging a pg and vg is damn expensive…. though its still a long way to the wedding date… I am one of the typical singaporeans….  kiasu is in my blood.. I hope to settle everything earlier… cos prices will only go up for wedding biz…wedding stuffs nowadays are so expensive.. in fact, everything in sg is expensive…

I wish for a miracle to happen to me… be it striking toto or 4d (even though I din buy), or winning some lucky draw with lots of cash… so that I need not worry abt money, money and more money problems… I wish that I can run away from the problems at home… I wish I can run away from work…. I wish someone headhunt me and give me better job and pay… I wish…..